So I've found a new workplace to go to the development trenches with. It's truly a blessing for us financially. But I have to say, for someone that doesn't care for big life changes, I feel like ours has had... a lot of them. I've learned, I've grown, I and my family have been tempered and hardened like a piece of iron passing through a slow and steady forge, with the occasional, unexpected shock of a sudden quenching.
I could go on about life changing as a whole for every member of my family; but I'll limit my thoughts to the subject of new jobs. Every company a place with both opportunity and hazards to traverse. With every new group a responsibility with a need to see proof that I am good enough; it's a little like dating, but with serious financial consequences if it doesn't go well :-) I've finally grown beyond the full force of that anxiety, but I am tired of having to repeat a process that is truly best addressed over time with patience, good will, peacemaking with my peers, and just a lot of hard work.
But I guess that's part of life; it's hard, and you do it anyway... You pray for peace and strength. At some point you take breath, and it's not so bad. In fact, you look back and see providence. Then you look forward, and you have hope.
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